Monday, May 28, 2012

Music Therapy with Miss Moon

A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing."
~ George Bernard Shaw

" We must not say every mistake is a foolish one."
~ Cicero

" If I had to live my life again, I'd make the same mistakes, only sooner."
~ Tallulah Bankhead

A few weeks ago, a major setback with my Father's health left me devastated. He was feeling defeated, and my family and I all felt powerless, because we felt like he was giving up and might not possess the willingness to prevail.

I was so despondent, I lacked the energy to do anything, so for three days, I didn't go on my walks, I wasn't trying to eat healthy, I wasn't sleeping, I didn't go to a meet up I was really looking forward to... In other words, I checked out for a while. And the whole time I was in limbo, I was feeling horrible about giving up. A part of me was urging me to keep going, with the promise that walking and moving will improve my mood... but I really wasn't trying to hear it.

Last week, after visiting my Dad (He's on the mend!) and seeing him in much better spirits, I felt an enormous weight being lifted off of my shoulders. All of the shame, and regret and disappointment I felt about the days past left me as well.

I've known for a while that nothing can make you feel stagnant like shame, and in knowing that... I refused to feel that way anymore. If I stayed curled up in bed out of fear of making another mistake... what's the lesson in that? Where's the growth? I told myself that this set back doesn't ruin my progress, at all. And in doing so, I felt ready to pick myself up, dust myself off, and start all over again. And I did! I went for my walk, even though I didn't want to and hadn't slept in almost twenty four hours. But I took BOTH of my walks that day, and I learned something very important in the process.

I actually found gratitude for a mistake I had made. That's HUGE for me, because I usually wring my hands and just feel overall ickiness for past mistakes. I found the best lesson and blessing in making a mistake.... the fact that you can change it! You have the power to turn it around if you want it turned. I did, and so... I did! And in honor of making mistakes, this week's Music Therapy with Miss Moon is from Fiona Apple. It's a song not only about making mistakes, but openly seeking them out! There's a wisdom in that, I think!!

Here's "A Mistake". I hope that all of you will embrace your mistakes and learn from them.

I'm gonna make a mistake-
I'm gonna do it on purpose
I'm gonna waste my time
'cause I'm full as a tick
And I'm scratching at the surface
And what I find is mine

And when the day is done, and I look back
And the fact is I had fun, fumbling around
All the advice I shunned, and I ran
Where they told me not to run, but I sure
Had fun, so

I'm gonna f**k it up again
I'm gonna do another detour
Unpave my path
And if you wanna make sense
Whatcha looking at me for
I'm no good at math

And when I find my way back,
The fact is I just may stay, or I may not
I've acquired quite a taste
For a well-made mistake
I wanna mistake why can't I make a mistake?

I'm always doing what I think I should
Almost always doing everybody good

Do I wanna do right, of course but
Do I really wanna feel I'm forced to
Answer you, hell no
I've acquired quite a taste
For a well-made mistake, I wanna
Make a mistake, why can't I make a mistake

I'm always doing what I think I should
Almost always doing everybody good

1 comment:

  1. Not many people understand the power of music. Beautiful!